Today is Ash Wednesday. For the next 40 days, I shall attempt to wake up before classes, read the Bible, reflect on it, and write it in here. If I happen to oversleep (which I NEVER do), (I need one of those) I'll write sometime during the day. If you'd like to keep me accountable, please call me in the morning to wake me up--4153350152 :) ... I'm not kidding.
My daily devos, then, begin in Psalm 86, because I had a bookmark there in my Bible, and I like it.
Hear me, Lord, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
I love this verse. I think I'm gonna start all my prayers with this verse now. First of all, I love how David just comes out and says it, he's poor and needy. No sugarcoating, no eloquence, no excuses. He's not like, "Hear me, Lord, for I've been loaded down with work and my bff is giving me crap again and I'm just so wiped out..." Nah, he's just like "I'm poor and needy." I think sometimes we sit there and just go on and on with God. Not that it's bad, but the Guy already knows what's up.
I remember a pastor saying one time that our prayers should be raw. Like, if we hate our friend we should pray, "God, I really hate Billy right now. Whenever I see him, I just wanna lay the smackdown on his rudy poo!" and not "God, I am having relationship troubles with my friend Billy right now. We seem to be having communicational differences." Or like, if we keep looking at pornography we should say, "God, whenever I turn on the computer, man, I just wanna look at that porno!" and not "God, I am having trouble with self-control and I have undesirable urges to treat women as objects."
Anyways, I digress. Back to the verse. Poor and needy. I love the words because they have such a negative connotation, but sometimes we need to be poor and needy in order to come to the point where we can cry out, "Hear me Lord and answer me." It is such a profound moment when we understand that we can't do crap on our own; that we have nothing to offer God and that we're such weak and insignificant beings.
Isn't this what Lent is all about? Decreasing our resources so that God's power can increase? This shouldn't be limited to these next 40 days, but it should be how we always do things, running to God and just saying, I'm weak and I'm poor and I need you more than anything right now.
Do you want to be a high maintenance follower of God?